Burned, bruised and broken. One split lip on top of another. A line of bruises march up your back like a second spine.
You cut your lip walking up some stairs. The bruises come from childish horseplay.
Nothing big. Not for a tough kid. Accidents happen because I'm clumsy.
Don't touch my neck. Don't touch my shoulders. Don't touch my back. They all hurt but it's no big deal.
It's hidden why I can't sit down. Why I wince as a blister pops when my shirt shifts just so.
Such a hot burn leaves such a cold bubble behind. It's funny how that happens as if the fluid is the blister's way of saying sorry for hurting as it sizzled and later puffed with defiant pride. A protective way to hide the tears.
As the liquid seeps on past my skin I straighten stiff to keep my uniform shirt from touching. If I feel the coolness reach my waist I have a chance to hide the tears my ugly back always cries.
These are the tears that I do not have to cry. They are locked within my skin reserved for burning. Silent, secret sobs as my skin heaves with pain.
Bruises heal and skin always knits. But my scars, they weep forever.
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Hello darkness my old friend,
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2 comments:
All I can do is read and let you know you HAVE connected, that you DO let us, your fellow scarred travelers, know that we are not alone. And that you words let loose from your soul convey so much more than you know.
All I can do is be here and come back. WRite responses sometimes, other times not. But please know that always, always I come back to read.
As do others. Your purpose is being fulfilled. I only wish and hope that along the way there is or will be healing for YOU.
Thank you, Jeannette. It's a really messed up way to arrive at a purpose but I'm getting a little more comfortable with it.
Jennifer
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